Whisper of Dragon Tears

Keyboards

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 11:26:31 GMT

Okay, I am not all that technically knowledgeable, I don't keep up to date on all the latest gadgets and such. Only what I hear my friends talk about of if I hear of something in passing that sounds interesting to me. But hasn't anyone thought of making a multi lingual keyboard? I was looking around on-line but so far... to no avail. Just bilingual. I mean am I really going to have to have 3 keyboards if I want to be able to type in Chinese, Japanese and Korean? X_x

DOH

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 12:28:01 GMT

You know you are tired when.... you tried to drink your coffee and poke yourself in the eye with the spoon. @_o

Everything Burns

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 09:46:02 GMT

Everything Burns - Ben Moody ft. Anastacia

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself,
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages,
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing

'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns

Ooh, oh

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns

'Till everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams..
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh..
(While everyone screams)
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away...

I feel strange listening to this song, especially paying attention to the words. I think it is a wonderful song and it strikes deep into my soul. I guess because I feel like I am burning all that pain and anger that I have inside me. I want to burn it all to the ground and start over, with a new life. I will break free from the chains that bind me and my spirit will arise, free, at peace and happy. I will shed the old life and only keep it as a distant memory.

I will move on. I promise myself.

Piiiieeee

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 13:43:06 GMT

I have this horrible craving for cherry pie. I think they sell some at one of the bigger grocery stores in town, in the center, but I don't want to drag my butt all the way to the center, just for cherry pie that I don't need in the first place.

X_x I'm almost dreaming of cherry pie.

What is it with Age?

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 11:16:39 GMT

Something I have noticed most of my life but I seem to notice even more as I get older is...

1. People saying someone is "too old" for something.
2. Just because you are a certain age, all of a sudden you become some foreign alien that younger people can't seem/don't want to relate to.

Whose right is it to say that I or anyone else for that matter is "too old" to be doing something? Okay I can think of some extremes, like you suck your thumb and you are 30 or use a bottle or something like that. But then again, it's their choice right, even if it might seem a little weird.

Some people think it is strange that I run around on a 3D chat program playing and having a good time. Or that I still like to watch cartoons or wear certain kinds of clothing. Or the fact that I still love to run outside and play in the snow/rain. Who says just because I am 30-40-50-100 that I can't do those things? I am overall the person I was 10 years ago when all those things were still considered normal. Now I'm getting too old for them? What the.... is up with that?

I also don't understand this mentality that just because you are a certain age, married or even have kids that your life should be so drastically different for someone younger, single, etc. Yes there are differences but I can find huge differences between two people of the same age even.

I go to penpal sites and see so many people saying that they only want to write to people around their age, young and old alike, though it seems a little more commonly mentioned by younger ones. I was 15 when I started penpaling and I wrote to everyone of every age, still do. I never based anything in friendship on a persons age but simply on how we got along and if I felt they were a decent person. Why should it matter if someone is 1 year or 10 years older than you?

Now I do understand with some kids who are under age. Maybe their parents don't want them talking to people much older than they are and some people will bring up predators on the internet. So I can understand some what being cautious with kids. I will not initiate writing to someone under 18. If they write me first, then I will gladly write back.

I bet if you took my list of interests and compared it with a list of interests of someone half my age, there would still be a lot in common. The differences of interest wouldn't be because of age so much as because every human being is different, with different tastes.

Now days I write someone 10 years younger than me and they are talking about "Oh you are so much older than me but you still seem interesting." Waaaaa? Just because I am 30, I shouldn't be interesting anymore or have anything in common with you? O_o

I just don't get it. >_

It's seriously SL photo OD now...

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 14:15:45 GMT

I've been extremely photo obsessed in SL lately. @_@ You don't even want to know how many photos I have taken these last couple of days. You can just see for yourself behind the

This is Fluffy's great, great, great grandpa. *gulp* What big teeth you have.

Jubie's hair got all messed up. It just looks.... wrong. @_@

A dragon playing with a GIANT cookie. GIMME COOKIE! I don't care if you are bigger! GIMME NOW!

My new little Spirit Dragon Avatar. <333333

I wanted to sit on Jubie's head, so I kicked her dragon Bayaku off. Then she moved and I was left hanging in mid air. MOMMY!

Jubie and I in the 1001 Arabian Nights Sim. We had to look human for it since it's also an RPG. Bleh! But it is a beautifully done Sim.

Jubie and Armena

Beautiful wall mural.

Me waiting for Jubie to return from an SL crash.

The Throne Room in 1001 Arabian Nights, along with the pet tiger. <333

My new Mad Hatter Tea Party Outfit. xD

Me just sitting around, enjoying.

Cute little thing, whatever it is. xD

A nice waterfall.

So pretty! <3333

Doing my first real build in SL. A stage. LOL Simple I know but I have plans. muahahahaha

Me on my stage.

The shell of the stage is finished, just need to get the curtains and the props for it now. ^_^

A foxxie King and his Bunneh Queen.

Poseball messed up, instead of worshipping the bunneh, I am stuck sitting in the middle of the air. @_@

Jubie and Kageichi on the log swing. <3333

A cuddle bunny for a cuddle bunneh.

Playing on the tire swing.

and more tire swing fun.

And yet more...

Are you tired of seeing us on the tire swing yet? xD

Rainbow bunneh.

Armena and Jubie.

I wonder what a doll ponders... ?

Apperently a lot.

I don't have a tissue big enough for that bugger!!!! X_x

Jubie's AO was messed up last night. Here, instead of standing, she is bouncing on her back. O_O

A GIANT tea party. ^_^ YAY!

Just adding some Dollie and Bunneh spice to the tea pot. ^_^

So cute! But stupid poseballs in the way. -_-;

Getting bored of tea time.

Armena

I knew I shouldn't have drank that stupid "drink me" potion. How the heck are we to get down now?!?! *sits and ponders*

It's like giant snow globe marionette!

Taking a ride on the train. <3333

Kageichi & Jubie (wedding bells are chiming in my head xD ) Foxxie has a potential photo shoot but he needs sample pictures first. So we all dressed like normal humans to help him out. ^_^

I pretended to be a bridesmaid. :P

Jubie & Armena

Yargh! There be pirates!!!

Too bad we can't take a ride on it!

I want my own pirate ship now! D:

While Foxxie and Bunneh were busy making photo's I thought I ought to make some too. xD There can never be enough photo's. @_@

Jubie looking all pretty.

Kageichi pondering his next shot.

The doll and the Princess Elf.

Now I am just dinking around with photo's of dollie.

I love the sakura tree. ^_^

more...

and.... more...

and even more...

Oi! I love this walkway!

Kageichi and Jubie

Being lazy and getting my dress all dirty! xD

And there goes the dollie pondering again.

Gah! I couldn't stay away from that walkway!

Pwetty! <3333333333333

We finally finished up taking photo's.

Oi.... O_o

Playing with Dollie

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:33:05 GMT

Dollie fun at Grims. Man that place is just fun! xD

Dollie in the stockade. LOL Funny thing is the AO for your avatar is still working so my dollie was squirming all around.

Just Hanging Around (Somehow I feel this pose needs a special facial expression with the X_X anime dead eyes look. hahahaha)

I want this treehouse. My doll was climbing up and down the rope. xD So fun!

Just lounging around.

I swear this tire swing needs a push animation. That would be so awesome.

Somehow I just didn't want to leave that silly tire swing. hahaha

There are even a few built in poses on the treehouse itself.

And another pose. xD

Remember this sign Jubie? XD

This box has given me some ideas of stuff I'd love to find/create, now if I only I were talented enough to do so. -_-;;;

Smaller version of the first box.

This one needs extra poses, I got in the box, saw the pose and thought... WAIT it needs more! *Stuffs more people in box with her* lol

SL Photo Spam xD

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 09:01:08 GMT

Jubie is going to make me turn my LJ into a dump for SL photos... 3 posts in a row now of pictures! Jubie what are you doing to me!?!?!?!?!?! LOL

One huge friggin reindeer, I look like an ant next to it. @_@

Foxxie showing Bunneh and Dollie around Samurai Island. That place is so cool. (wants to get her sword soon)

It's insane how well done some of these sims are. I want to really visit it! Beautiful.

Dollie, Bunneh and Foxxie just standing around.

Kageichi-san the blind foxxie.

Armena and Jubie. <3

Kageichi and Jubie, aren't they just cute? xD

No Fluffy, BBQ Dollie does NOT taste good. Good Fluffy, Nice Fluffy. *runs away and hides* @_@

Kageichi and Jubie watching the ocean. ^_^

Where is my poseball? @_@ I decided to create poses for avatars in SL. Of course the first one I make gets stuck UNDER the sand and I didn't know how to get. So I stood around for 2 hours til someone I knew was on and helped me get it out. <33333 Razmataz, thanks so much, I'd have been doomed without your help! LOL

Pan & Aga afterlife... so beautiful. Man you could spend forever on that little island.

Jubie the Clumsy Cupcake Bunneh Queen

Kageichi-san the Blind Foxxie

Armena... Marionette

Foxxie and Bunneh cuddles... so cute!

Bunneh demands cuddles from her dollie too... YES your majesty Bunneh Queen MAAAAAM.

Aaaaa so pretty, I just want to live on this island!

Tulip Time!

Pretty, pretty, pretty! There were even Pegasi (is that plural for Pegasus? LOL) flying around off behind around another island. xD

I am so addicted to my jester outfit. I think I like it best of all my outfits (by far) it's scary how much I love it. LOL

Drowned yet in pictures? xD

Lurves you two!

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 10:59:12 GMT

For my Cupcake bunneh Queen and her Blind foxxie. <33333333

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 16:34:50 GMT

And what do Jubi and I spend the day doing when we are on SL together? (imagines behind the cut, warning BIG lol)

Zaaldavej + Jubie Art = Armena Face Plant *splat* xD

Jubie & Armena go photo crazy at the Crimson Castle. Awesome place! <333333

...

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 20:28:18 GMT

I need a place to call my own, a place to call home, where I feel I belong and am welcomed with open arms by those around me.

Mahbraincanttakeitanymore XD

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 21:05:03 GMT

I really must stop watching Visual Kei bands. My mind is beginning to seriously get an overdose of ideas. X_x I never knew how much I would love Visual Kei. XD *needs more DVD's now of Visual Kei bands she likes*

Buck-Tick - Alice in Wonder Underground

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:32:56 GMT

I just had to share this song with friends. OMGosh It makes me SO happy, I can't stop listening to it on my album. :D I am so glad I bought this album with the special DVD addition.

Early Christmas

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:07:28 GMT

GrefTek and I decided to give each other our Christmas presents early this year since the rush of Christmas is always horrible. So we got GrefTek an 8GB iPod Nano and I have been ordering random items from the internet. Mainly music either in CD or DVD form and one anime DVD. I'm so happy with everything I am bouncing in my chair. D:

Someone help me before I fall off! XD

Bored Queen and her Doll

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 05:23:34 GMT

Jubatajuno and I had a great time running around SL today and we found these cheap thrones! But the poor Bunny Queen and her Doll were quickly bored with being worshiped by their subjects. D:

Taken From Kirrazz

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 09:37:03 GMT

Because I am bored and need to stay awake...

If you comment on this post, I will choose seven interests from your profile and you will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.

My Experience With the Writing Workshop

Mon, 21 May 2007 14:08:14 GMT

I attended a Writing Workshop this weekend over "The Novel". It explored the in's and out's of novel writing and the troubles writers face when trying to write a novel. The workshop is tailored to each group which means that if needed you can spend more or less time discussing certain subjects.

I found it to be extremely helpful. I gained so much knowledge from that weekend that the information is oozing out of my brain! I could re-take that workshop a few times before I manage to get everything out of it.

That being said, I also felt out of place and it was a real challenge for me. The workshop is for all levels of writer from beginning to someone who's been published over and over. Most people there were far above my knowledge level. I felt like a 12 year old sitting with a bunch of knowledgeable adults.

On the first day we were given a sentence in which one word was left out, we had to fill in the word and then continue writing a story from that sentence. We were given about 2 minutes, then the instructor stopped us, we continued on for a while with class before she had us go back and scan what we had written finding a word or phrase that stuck out and then writing from that word/phrase. We did this a few times.

Sunday she read aloud the unedited pieces we had written. Everyone's sounded so beautiful especially being a first draft. Then mine came along and I was so embaressed, I'm glad everything was read annonymously. Even for me that piece was horrible. The workshop tries to promote your strengths. The instructor gave insight into the strong points of everyone's piece but after she read mine, she just had to explain that she thought it was leading where it ended up leading to. Never gave any positive or negative feedback. Which leaves me wondering "Was it really that awful?"

I know I am a newbie writer, I make all the newbie writer mistakes, I have a lot to learn, perhaps things I should have learned years ago even but I am just learning them now. I struggle with my self confidence and insecurity. The stopped me from doing anything for years. I was just too afraid of rejection or failure to even start to try something. I'm trying to overcome that but the workshop proved difficult in that manner too. Today I am very exhausted emotionally from trying to not let my brain run to wild with the thoughts of "Am I good enough?" "Did it my writing suck that badly?" "Should I bother going on?" All this internal dialogue does is beat me down which is the last thing I need to do.

Now I know not everyone will like my writing, some because it is not their genre, some because it is not their writing style, others just because it doesn't interest them. Thats fine, everyone has their own opinion, even I, it doesn't really mean a writer or piece is good/bad just a person's individual taste. I don't want to fail and stop this book before it's finished just because of self doubt or the fact that someone doesn't like it. If 100 people read it and only 5 enjoy it, that is still 5 people that enjoyed it, right?

So I have to push forward through the muck and the mud, I will come out victorious in the end even if it means the battle will rage on.

Joy

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 06:18:37 GMT

Well it is just 5 days before the wedding and I have a full blown cold. X_x This is going to be interesting.

Pornalizer

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:22:08 GMT

Oh man, GrefTek showed me this link for your porn name. LOL I know there are lots of them but it's just always amuzing to me. X_x

http://www.sinner.se/pornalizer/female.html

My pornalizer name is Chesty Cheeks X_x ROFL

Need Inspiration

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 14:03:57 GMT

I think I figured out something I need in order to help me get a bit more focused with my writing. I need to surround myself with inspiration. Like the right kind of music to set the mood (that always helps) but also I should display things from the world I am creating.

I've made a little world map and I should just put it in a frame and display it somewhere around my desk where I can see it when I'm writing and a friend of mine is working on a commission piece for me, once that is done I can display it as well and she had done a few other pieces too with other characters of mine or hers that, when I see them, give me inspiration to do more.

I'm not sure what else might help in inspiring me though but I know the way my desk and surroundings are now, it's not inspiring at all. It just looks like a computer desk in a cluttered computer room. I need to turn part of it into my personal space where I feel comfortable enough to let my imagination run away with itself.

Announcement

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 12:43:43 GMT

I have a computer desk and it is clean! *dies of shock*

That is all.

Poll: Can someone truly fall in love with a character in a book?

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 11:30:44 GMT

View Poll: Character Love

I finished watching the anime Fushigi Yuugi the other day and it has left me wondering if someone could truly fall in love with a character in a book? People get moved to varying degree's by fictional characters all the time but how closely do you really feel to them, do you think it's possible to love one even though they don't exist except on paper?

Focus, I Need Focus

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 09:18:11 GMT

I started trying to fill out a sort of book overview for a story I want to write. I'm not very good at this X_x I think in scenes. So when I get an idea for a scene it is easy to write even if I need/want to go back and make some changes to it so that it feels more correct to me later. Trying to fill in the gaps is extremely difficult. I have no clue what to place inbetween. I think I have a description for 7 chapters maybe and some of those wouldn't even be more than a few pages I think. I so need help with my writing and orginization skills with laying out a book format.

I keep telling myself to just take a certain amount of time every day or week and sit down and write but it never works out that way. If I have a very clear idea and this feeling of "burning passion" (for lack of a better way to describe it) I can sit down and turn out several rough draft pages very quickly. Once it's gone though, it's gone and even if I have more ideas to write about, I just can't seem to get them to come out on paper. Even if I get words written down, when I read it back it just doesn't sound right. :/ *argh* I'm quite aggrivated with myself for this lack of focus and disapline.

I know what I want to write about. I finally found a pair of characters I created that would be easy to start with since I only have a book or so worth of ideas about them together. And I have commissioned a friend to do an art piece of the two. I'll commission her for at least one other piece with the two later (forwarns Jubi :P) Maybe even some sketches! I find that having some art to see before me helps as well in creating more inspiration. Problem is we only have so much money (especially with the wedding) and Jubi only has so much time to be working on art pieces.

I just need to dig my heels into Abinsia and keep it going. I'm afraid it's going to die off if I don't and I and my friends have worked too hard for me to just give up on it. It's sort of a life long dream of mine to create this world. Even if nothing ever comes of it and only myself and my friends get enjoyment out of it, I don't want to give it up.

I hope once the wedding is over that the writing workshop in Amsterdam will offer another writing class along the lines of what I need to start with. *crosses fingers*

I did however finish making the world map for Abinasia in detail. I finished it a couple of weeks ago. It might be a bit cheesy looking but when you do not have artistic skills I think it's still something to be proud of. (If nothing else for the amount of work I put into it *dreams of pasting hundreds of moutains and plains together*). I'll post a link to it in a bit for those interested. I need to add the continent names on first.

Trinity Blood Anime

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 22:45:38 GMT

I just finished watching 24 episodes of the anime Trinity Blood earlier this week. I'm not sure if there are more episodes or another storyline with the same characters. I haven't seen anything yet. But I so fell in love with the main character Abel Nightroad. Out of all the anime's I have watched (or even movies for that matter) he is my all time favorite character.

I feel so much for Abel. He's a character that had a hard beginning, being a disposable asset, a sort of test tube baby along with 3 others. The show only gives faint glimpses of his past but in his early days it appears he hated humans and wanted to destroy them. Now he spends all his time trying to help them and says he will never forgive himself for the things he has done in his past. I just want to reach out and squish him and try and make him feel better! X_x

I love how he had such a sad and dark past but that he has risen above it. If we'd seen him in his early days we would have seen him as the villan. But because we see him in present day, we see him as the hero. He can be so clumsy and silly and then turn around and be dead serious and have absolute control.

He usually looks like a normal human running around in priestly garb as he works for a special section of the Vatican. Sort of a special ops or core for the Vatican you could say. But (if I understand things correctly again) being a test tube baby he was altered with Nano machines and can activate them to become quite a frightening sight. (well he looks really cool but you wouldn't want to be on his bad side!). He becomes a vampire looking creature who feeds off of other vampires!

I'm also very fond of the anime Blood+ (also deals with vampires, yes I LOVE vampires). I watched it first before Trinity Blood and really fell in love with the storyline as well. It's a more detailed storyline but it also has 50 episodes to Trinity Blood's 24 episodes so there is far more time to tell a detailed story in. But Abel Nightroad just stands out most of all for me as a character.

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 09:57:30 GMT

greftek</lj>and I just received one of the most unique and thoughtful wedding gifts (or gifts period) I think we will ever get! Our friend butterfly_wt</lj>came up with something so cool, fun and we just had a great few minutes with her presentation of it.

She gave us...

Something Old
She handed us an 8mb storage card for an electronic device and announced it as something old.

Something New
She handed us a package wrapped in paper from one of the toy stores. When we opened it, it was Singstar Legends with the microphones! :D (singstar! singstar! singstar! singstar!)

Something Borrowed
She handed us her Playstation 2 and told us we could borrow it until after the wedding when we can buy our own PS2! *OMGosh* *yay* *yay* *yay*

Something Blue
She gave us another package to unwrap. This time it was 2 games, One of the new Call of Duties and Sims 2, both for the PS2. Both packages have blue in them! :D

I was (and still am) bouncing off the walls with this! It is SO unique and thoughtful and different which is just cool! I'm dying to play but first I need to finish our wedding invitations or I will never get them done XD

*tries to contain herself before she explodes*

Thank you so much Butterfly_wt! *hugs all your stuffings out* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee